Memorandum Orphan (Metal)

[Chorus]
Sometimes, I wish everything would go away
Just die, or cease to exist
You can′t see what's inside of me
Lost from the fall
Free from it all in the blink of an eye

[Post-Chorus]
I die inside when I lie about the suffering I hide
You never knew what I went through

[Verse 1]
What is it inside me that feels so broken?
I grit my teeth and say "it′s all gonna be fine" but I know its not when I look myself in the mirror and I grit my teeth and lie and say that I'm okay when I know it's not
It′s all bullshit

[Verse 2]
Worthless fucking cunt
Orphan
Lead to a dead end with a mirror in the ditch
Lie to my face and say it′s better in the end
Last breath I take, won't give a fuck about a bitch
Live in the past and die with empty answers
I know I dont give a fuck about this but I′m out of excuses for why I'm like this
What′s the fucking use of explaining if no one's going to fucking understand this adolescent hate birthed in bunk beds
Part of me can see and fight but I feel like I′m loosing sight
Keep looking for that place to call home in the dead of the night