AS OF NOW Dystopia

I'm 19 living with my parents and I'm not in college
People view me as a bum, and I cannot stop it
Now I'm back on the streets, need to find a place to stay
So I hit up Julian, now it's time to contemplate

Always look to the stars, I find a shooting one
So I make a wish for my career, I know it won't be done
Then I sit and think about the girl I wanna love
All the ones that broke my heart
How things should've gone

I should've listened to my counselor
All I wanted was pussy and power
Possessed by the pussy and the power
I should've listened to my counselor

As of now I'm here to send my bro off to New York yea yea
Talk and contemplate our dreams while we bumping fidlar yea
I got family selling drugs , I got family gang banging
I don't say it proudly I pray that they make it home safely

I fucked up with my baby, now shit is complicated
It's music or I die, and I'm not exaggerating
Hard to be a role model for my little cousins
When I'm out here being wild on Instagram cussin'
Hopefully it won't be long until my name is buzzin
Been working way too hard , me and vuhsace
I Got two friends that's serving for our country
I pray that they live to see the day where I achieve my dreams