Searching Xan Griffin

[Verse 1]
Feels like my whole life's in a disarray
I say I'm alright, but honestly, I'm not okay
What happened to the head I had on my shoulders?
I guess this is what happens when you're gettin' older
At seventeen, I thought I had it all figured out
Doing music is the only thing I dreamed about
But all the passion I had; it seemed to leave me
Feels like my soul departed from my body
So now I fill that void with sex and drugs
Psychedelic fucking and smokin' on nugs
Thinking that it’s gonna reignite that fire
Burning desire; I'm lost, and now I'm

[Chorus]
Searching for, for the answers
I can't cope with this cancer
Lost no hope, maybe I should end it all, all
Searching for, for the answers
I can't cope with this cancer
Lost no hope, maybe I should end it all, all

[Verse 2]
I know what I have is a blessin' (Blessin')
If I’m being grateful, why the fuck am I stressin'? (Stressin')
Maybe it's the universe tryna teach me a lesson (Lesson)
That things get harder once you graduate adolescence
This shit is taking a toll on my personal life
Making me bitter towards my girl and family, I
Never knew what depression would ever feel like
Until I lost my drive (My drive)
I’m soundin' like a motherfucking drama queen (Drama queen)
Just want you to know how much this means to me (Means to me)
Music's my oxygen and I cannot breathe (Cannot breathe)
Looking for inspiration, so now I'm