Gone Spirits 404

This is all that I'm worth now that it's over
One single speech
Of words that did not reach you
Before I gave myself away

To a kind of indecision
That digs and digs and digs until I forget
And then I go on and relive past experience
Until it's bundled up somewhere comfortable and warm

A shelter from the winter
A shelter from all that it wrought
A shelter from pain
A shelter from the light that I have now forgot

So I looked inside and I found its home and I tried to fix the wound
But the little fucker was clever and it wouldn't be gone that soon
For a while there, I thought it cleared with a smile upon my face
Now that months have past and I've sunken back I know it's here to stay
Well I said to you that our times are through, and we're going back to normal
But this shit isn't normal and I should've known that I'm not prepared
It'll never be the same, and it'll never be that way
And I'm always going to remember the day I figured out I was scared

It was dark back then
Of course it was
I followed through
And all for naught
And look at me
I'm withering
And falling in
And left alone
To see myself
An emptiness
A broken heart
A passion missed
A torn apart
A nothingness
And all along
A spirit gone