Head Down King Iso

[Verse 1]
Can somebody remind me?
I'm alive cause it's obvious I'ma be dying
Nevermind what your eyes see
I got the mind of a minefield bottled inside me
And my pride is behind me, so when I speak
I try finding the right thing
But I'm left with a bottle of vodka, and I can't decide did it mind, did it not, see
My bum broke on the concrete, and I think what if I didn't stop and it got me
Death, is all I got in this world is me and mine
Be in mind, he remind of me of zombies
I'm a dead man walking, but I'm drowning in sorrow, it's drowning tsunami
And I'm praying to God that my mom never finds me with an IV inside me
But I write these thoughts, I might be off
Fuck it man, It might be y'all
My son don't see me, my wifey scarred
I feel like my music cutting my psyche off
And I don't wanna believe in a pipe dream, naw
Inner demons, gotta fight these off
Millimeter on my right, please call
Nigga, give a reason that I [might?] squeeze off
Nigga, feel the fire, I pop them pills till I'm feeling tired
The devil wanna kill desire, I never really feel inspired
I guess what I'm feeling is spilling, I fill the dryer up
With my dirty laundry 'cause I been washed up
Hell naw, it's just my luck
Gettin' ready to end my love
It's already lost so pour some Hen in my cup