Pity Party Sammus (Ft. Open Mike Eagle)

[Chorus]
I’m throwing a pity party
Fuck you to everybody
Unless you feel my pain
Don’t even get me started
I’m hearing the tick tock
Of the big clock
I and to pray to the Lord
To make this stop

I’m throwing a pity party
Fuck you to everybody
Unless you feel my pain
Don’t even get me started
I’m hearing the tick tock
Of my wrist watch
Cut my wrist off
And then it stops

[VERSE 1: Sammus]
What am I doing?
Is it worth me pursuing degrees?
I don’t even know what I'm gon' do if
I’m 37 and I’m still a student
Can’t focus on music
I be comparing myself to my friends I know
It's a bad habit I try hard to let it go
I admit I been feeling pathetic so
I keep on thinking in all hypotheticals
Every minute it’s
What if I dropped out?
What if I stopped now?
What if I…?
Well where would I be now?
And how would my beats sound
On Spotify?
I try to be grateful
After all it’s the first world
But when I’m alone and I’m looking on Facebook
I feel like a cursed girl
Social media show me where I’d rather be
Like out on the beach while I’m riding a beat
To cover my pain I stay making small talk
I remain a big catch in a small pond
I should probably log-off
But I got a few fans who would pop-off
So I stay to give props to the people who got me
Support and defend me at all costs
The tale is ever so tall
That if you be good then you will receive
Cuz I’ve been giving my all
But I’m still the same exact hue as Mystique
So my passion don’t pay for my lights
So I do things I hate and it’s painful it's like
I should swallow the red pill and ease my nerves
To get rid of the feeling of dreams deferred