You Vin Jay

[Verse 1]
Lately I don't really know what's goin' on inside of me
I wake up every day and I just drown in my anxiety
Know I can't complain so I just suffer through it silently
But there's a disconnect from who I am and who I'm tryna be
N-n-never change, demonstrate
Cyclic habits everyday
Pray to God who's merciful and hope that I see twenty-eight
Maybe I should slow it down and stop fearin' complacency
But if I'm bein' honest dawg
I think that it's too late for me
I'm way gone, I'm talkin' way gone
Ain't tryna stay long
The pain come and fuck my days up
I'm gettin' preyed on
I-I-I been tryna grow
I been tryna rest
I just wanna slow down and catch a breath
Thou cannot control, overthinkin' though
So many things in this lifе that I regret
Done prеtending
Unrelenting pain but I'm too numb for venting
Funds ascending
But I got a funny feelin' God'll put me in a humble ending
Just depending
Only got 4 people in life that'll hold me down
Everybody else two-faced
I don't got the heart to call you my homies now