Now or Never Complete (Ft. Greeley)

It was like
I forgot about my future and I pissed it away
Just to get pissed as fuck
That's pretty much the gist of the day
Distant and dazed
Consistently I pictured a grave
Had my name written on it
And the bricks would decay
A quick fix
It's like my wrist was amazed
It would spit away
Insisted on the slits that were made
An alcoholic warzone where every sip’s a grenade
I saw them empty stubbies turn into a ditch and a spade
Addictions to blame
For every single risk that I take
For every incident considered as my biggest mistake
For every time I said id quit it for my missus sake
Then stick with it for a minute til id miss it and cave
I guess that everybody thought it was a bit of a phase
But I was binging on the liquor
I was giving it praise
A victim of shame and sickened with a prisoners rage
Then I was staring down the barrel and it triggered a change

Did I ever really give enough?
I guess I did but it was only for a little buzz
I didn't think that I was worth it
I could turn around and get it
Let alone put in the effort
But I had to learn to work and never give it up
Sometimes I wonder if i wasn't ever given drugs?
What would have happened if my father didn't hit and run?
I think it's dumb, but would I still be on this path?
It took a while to find that it was sinkin’ deeper than the liquor does
A lot of peoples dreams are keeping me from sittin’ drunk
To see my friends are falling down that hole
Until they give up
I’m feeling shit cos I admit that I was in a rut
But when I found that I was out
I couldn't help but give a fuck
I've been a cunt but I was whinging
I was stuck
I wasn't thinking
I was dumb
And I was binging to get through the month
A bit of fun to get me pumped to go and hit a club
Just to get a bit of recognition for the shit I've done