Elegy in May Rachel Zegler

I started to fall
In the backseat of the cab
My hand in your hair
Your head in my lap

And every time I dream of this
I wish that I
Did not exist
That I'd have just floated away

And then it starts to fall apart
The day we long to go back to the start
I should have known the moment that
You felt the need to take a step back
I should have just floated away

Why did I believe
In the lies within a dream?
Could I be the one to blame
If it always ends the same?

I guess I've grown and so have you
And i believe that our love was true
And even though it caused me pain
This toxic need wants it back again
The idea of you floats in my brain