It’s Been Awhile [Clean] Staind

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can remember
As *** up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say
That I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say
I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and *** things up
Just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that *** seems to disappear
When I'm with you
And everything I can remember
As *** up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and *** things up again, again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way
The candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember
Just the way you taste
And everything I can remember
As *** up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry