The Lie of Black and White Chonny Jash

I- I- I- I-

I remember a time when it was easier
To hide behind the lie of black and white
I’d say I’d aligned and that I’d be with her
But even then, the roads had intertwined

When that rainbow, out of reach, up high, hanging overhead couldn’t shine yet
When raindrops from the sky’d merely hide the pain
And make shit wet
When lines once silver'd blur like those of he and hеr
And grey clouds left me shadеd the gradient of dread

Back when I said
That “being stuck on the fence between romance is killing me”
That “every moment I wait substantiates my misery”
That “all the fish in the sea formate the shape of beings I cannot see”
“A shadowy mass of that which haunts my dreams”

I remember that time and what it did to me
The fear, the shame, the sheer relentless cold (Oh, so cold)
I’d do what I thought the world would want from me
I’d smile and wave and be what I was told

But as time meandered slowly by, it all began to change
In a good way
The cloth of life began to be dyed in vibrant shade arrays
The silence turned to violets
Gold from violence
Blue skies that had once mimicked the colour of pain