I’d Rather Lie Winchifrost

[Verse 1]
Staring at a rooftop wondering what it’s like to float
Playing with a cat toy like it’s wrapping ‘round my throat
Suicide is not something that I would like
But thoughts of it just often cross my mind
If I say such dark things don’t you feel terrified?
Minimizing what I feel to keep another safe. (Keeps us safe)
Criticizing my ordeal and hope it goes away
It’d be better if I didn’t feel a thing. (Don’t feel it)
I tried to numb my heart but it still stings
Unconsciously my body screams, “Please end everything”

[Chorus]
I’d rather lie than show what’s on the inside
It hurts too much to bear
But I don’t want to see you scared
I’d rather cry alone before I die
This spiraling despair
Is not something I wish to share
I’d rather lie

[Verse 2]
Waking up thе snake that taunts you slithers by your side
Saying that your stomach’s full ‘causе you can’t stand another bite
But, try as you might you still have a taste
Who knew that poisoned fruit would feel so great?
But isn’t all that sweetness just disguising the hate?
Minimizing what I feel and hurting myself more. (Keeps us safe)
Criticizing my ordeal because it isn’t yours
I still hate that I feel anything inside
So I’ll convince myself it’s justified
And consciously I tell myself, “You’d better die”