The Days When My Mother Was There J-MUSIC Ensemble

I was a kid
With no cares of what you went through during your bid in the books
I know emotions spilled over the lid
And I wish I could take back all of the things that I did
All of the times that I grew tired of bein' inside
All of the times I wanted more than what my mom could provide
If it meant that all the guilt and the pain wouldn’t be harvested
I swear I'd take it back to the moment it all started

Then I'd stomach all the boredom I felt
And understand you had to take a lot of time for yourself
I’d promise I'd wait, make an effort to end my issues
Knowin' that later on I'd get to spend time with you

'Cuz now, the only flashbacks in my head
Are the men in suits yelling, "You're the reason she's dead"
And at the same time, I'm countin’ the days that I am goin’ to
Keep myself inside this room 'til I can join you

Away from everybody else
So I won’t be the reason behind every single time they threw a fit
And people might forget I exist
But when it comes to they life, at least they can't say I ruined it

It's not that I'm not able to stay calm
I just have nothin’ left from only wantin' my mom
And if I did join you, would you still see me as a nuisance?
Do I really have no room for improvement?