Lost Token

[Verse 1]
I was never the kid beggin' for help
Always thought I could do everything better myself
So I kept to myself
At age nine, ten, eleven and twelve I started developing remedies for my mental health
I would write a verse here and there when I was angry or sad just to clear the air
But as time went on, it was weird and rare
I'm frustrated, this wasn't why I appeared to bear
See rap was my reason, addictive personality added to the fact that I lacked what I needed
A sense of purpose, happiness even
And the more I worked, the more support I had been receivin'
Made new friends that came with the cause
Stayed out of trouble everyday writing songs
Eventually gained fans who were craving it all, huh
And here I am contemplating it all, I'm lost

[Chorus]
Lost
I wake up and ask where has my time gone?
So I go back to sleep
And because I am young, I'll do anything for the things that I love
'Cause baby I'm lost

[Verse 2]
And everything I got is clearly a blessin'
But my life is solely music, after school I disappear in a second and I fear where I'm headed
They tell me to be a kid, don't waste these years, you'll regret it
But I'm caught in this damn route
Of who can be the product to stand out?
I might be
And I'm confident hands down
Nothing will happen with this unless I work the hardest I can now
So someone teach me how to balance this
Last week I stepped back and acted as a kid
But there were opportunities I had to pass up quick
Plus I'm late for collabs and I'm lookin' like an asshole
And I'm battlin' myself, I ain't choose this match
It's summer now, I got time, but what the fuck am I gon' do with that?
And while I think on it, I'll look at my inboxes
And see kids talkin' like "Where the new music at?"
I'm lost