Demon Dreaming Heembeezy

[Intro]
Dez, you made a hit
Gaze, call me back
Yeah, oh

[Verse]
They don't know 'bout half the shit I go through
Past relationships, they all old news
When I was broke it made me wanna go catch the richest body
Got everything all on my own, I ain't need nobody (Hm)
And I’ll never feel, some type of sympathy towards somebody who ain't never helped
And everyday I lose my appetite, I can't touch a meal
You either gon’ do minimum wage or do a hundred years
Why the fuck you niggas wanna be me? I'on even like myself
Lately I been thinking 'bout suicide, I'm losing myself
I talked to God, he told me "You decide if you want the help"
Know they don't know the pain and trauma that a nigga done felt
They'll never understand me
You know how it feel to get shit talked by your own family?
I chose the streets and I lost my chance on the grammy
Ever since I almost lost my life I kept the Glock in handy (Oh)
A percocet will take the pain away
I'm seein' demons in my dreams, it ain't no heaven gates
I pour a four up in the soda just to medicate
I need medicate-, I need medication
I never forget the times they tried to paint me like I'm dumb
Trust me, I'ma always know, but I just never say nun'
I know I'ma get through it, I'm just tired of going through it
And my heart broken in pieces, it ain't no point, it ain’t losin’
I ain't got a soul to talk to, put my pain in all this music
Why you spend money on guns and ain't never gonna shoot it?
And my loyalty run deep, that's why I go crazy when I feel like you playin' with me
When I found out all that shit you did, I swear I couldn't believe
I was down bad on my knees, beggin' you please not to leave
Should've known when I had seen it first in all my fucking dreams
I bet you they gone give a fuck when I finally leave (Yeah-oh)