Anxiety ​iamjakehill

I swear every day is something different
Death and helplessness feeling so empty
I trade my what if's for others
Like what if my illness was more than just wonders

I’m sick of being sick of me
Grit my teeth, weak in the knees
I can only run for so long before I trip and see
That I can’t change my outcome

My mind constantly races
I wish I could live without one
I’m my own worst enemy and that’s a reality
I take the smallest thing and turn it into tragedy

A sip of coffee to wake up
But caffeine rattles my brain like I’m insane
But I guess that’s just my makeup
I used to live carefree

But now I’m so scared, please
Just leave me the fuck alone
Not anybody in general
But my own body, the temple

My insides like catacombs
Find my way through the dark to be back at home
The place I was taken from without consent
Only to be returned broken and bent