The Miracle Suicidal Tendencies

I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know just what the consequences are
I laughed out loudly, while I cried inside
But I didn't have the strength to say enough of this ride
Like a fool - I believed in a miracle
I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure
But I found an answer - it seemed to be a perfect cure
Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot - like a fool
I believed in the miracle

Fuck the miracle!

Twisting and I'm turning - first I'm freezing then I'm burning
Laughing then I'm crying - am I living or am I dying?
I'm Swearing then I'm praying - and I don't know what I'm saying
Happy then so sad - forgiven then so mad

Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in, do you still believe in miracles?

Fuck the miracle!

Pushing then pulling - who am I fooling?
A friend then a foe - do I really even know?
Love and then hate - so pure I'm gonna break
Peace then at war - what am I fighting for?