Crowd Control Istanbul King

(Chorus)
Think I believe your sympathy
Think you really wanna envy me
It’s bullshit, let me see
Forever alone in the crowd
Who knew I could be like this now?
Living my life, show me how
Otherwise, my lifelines going down

(Verse 1)
You think I’m suicidal, but I don’t wanna die
Every night, I like to stare at the sky
All nights, I think about the point of my life
Maybe not tonight

(Refrain)
I know you wanna feel sympathy for me
But it’s too damn shallow, see?
No one understands me
My points don’t match with theirs
And it will not help me

(Verse 2)
I gotta let it out, it’s rеgular life
I don’t know why
I’m 15 and I know what it’s like to die
But God’s not on my sidе
Every day, I hide
In this shell of mine
I seem calm, but that’s a fucking lie
I fear I may go psycho
But who knows
Maybe one day, I might get some control
Be a holy ghost
Find somewhere else to go
We need some crowd control
What the fuck though?
It’s not the way life goes
But is it though
I won’t ever know
I just feel alone