Sick Joke Xana

[Intro]
Write it in gold
It could be retold
But the ending gets old
They say you learn to know
When it's time to go
Like a sick joke

[Verse 1]
These days I'm talking to myself again
Reenacting conversations that never happened
I know what to say now when you ask me
If everything I feel is temporary
I'm learning more about myself and it's scary
Won't you let me live right here in the memory
Love me plenty, take this gently
Leave me empty, leave me whole
Call it what it is
It's a sick, sick joke

[Chorus]
But nobody's laughing now
Wanna learn to love you, I just don't know how
Swear I'm really trying but I'm all worn out
And all that happened hurt me more than I care to talk about
Nobody's laughing now
Nothing ever changes and I'm sick of this town
Will I find it in me to find a way out?
I think I might feel better once I let you down