​crumbling / suicide note ​convolk

[Intro]
I wish that I could find another way
But I am not alive, already dead
So long before I

[Verse]
I wish you knew how I feel
About you, about you
Don't think it's sad to, sad to
Suffer, I'm glad to, glad to
I'm crumbling down
I am still stuck in this town
Life of a letdown, letdown
Jumping to get down, get down
And I need some help
Ask for it? No chance in hell
Laugh at it after we fell
But I can't get up again
Do some more to sober up
Five-cards wants to blow me up
Falling is the best of fun
The last look at this gun
Every room in my house is a fucking mess
I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast
Maybe that's what it takes to wake up my friends
Hope you know what you were missing then
I wanna write a note that makes my friends cry
Write a note that makes my friends cry
Really makes me wanna take my life, take my life