AUDIT WeevilDoing (Ft. 弦巻マキ (Tsurumaki Maki))

I've got a business, I've got a lovely wife
Everything I could want, I've got a perfect life
It's like you're hardly working when it's something you love
A brain of calculation, its heart an abacus

But I think I'd be lying if I didn't say this
I've got a way with words but, not a way with emotions
I've got a silver bullet, I've got a self-prescription
I say, "hand me one more drink," you call it an addiction

I open up the bottle, let inhibition go
Maybe I shouldn't, though
I know I shouldn't, though
If it becomes a problem, if it seeps in my bones
Nobody has to know
Nobody has to know

I've got a business, I've got a lovely wife
Maybe I lie a little, but I'm doing alright
I say that I'll get better, I say I'm trying to quit
But if you know me, you would know I'm faking it

It's only twice a day, then three, then four, then five
It's not like it'll kill me, it makes me feel alive
At least I thought that I did, don't let them know I told you this
But I don't know how to resist, I hate my own excuses