Paralyzed Lovejoy (USA)

I wish I
Could get some sleep at night
But the thought of you
Just makes me feel alone
Staring at the ceiling
Makes me lose all feeling
Inside of my chest
Because the way I see it
I'm fucking overwhelmed

Please tell me
Why the fuck am I still here?

Laying down on this twin size mattress
Feeling like I’m not alive
I don't know if it makes any sense but
I think I'm paralyzed
Laying down on this broken glass that
You stabbed in my back
I watched you walk away but
I guess I’m over that

I've tried so hard to fix my spine
Because it feels so out of place
The scars on my back
Remind me of when
I would cut you out once again
Once I can finally breathe
I'll see the marks upon my sleeve
And let you see just
What you've done to me