First Day of the End of My Life Amigo the Devil

Jumping off 14th avenue tonight
Spill my regrets in the highway light
You might call me a coward
And they might call it a sin
But I'll never have to hear those words again

I took pills the doctors gave me for my brain
It's a chemical imbalance from what they know
But I never felt much different or the same
With the way I feel, I wouldn't even know

I said goodbye to both my mom and room
And I walked towards all the things I'll never do
I almost called my friends to see what all of them would say
But they never really answered anyway

Maybe someone else can use my eyes or heart
I thought about taking pills to buy them time
But I couldn't take the chance that I'd survive
With a new regret in the hospital light

I had a thousand different answers
When the problem's what I need
In a city lay in ruins, where the carpenters sleep
And the architect was digging through the ash
To find the plans they'll never need
At least not for me