​does this make u feel better lieu

[Verse]
I won't feel alive for now
I promise you I'll try for now
But you will die soon or later
Feelings on the paper
You won't hear me crying out
Oh no
Give me a chance
Put my hand in the bandwidth
I wanna feel something alive
But I can't have shit
Maybe I'll manage
But for now it seems like I'm dying
And I'm dying
It's fine I promise you
Drink the water out the faucet
And I cry every time I'm reminded of you
I might fucking end it all
Bring it up again please
My mind is leaking adderall
So many things against me
Why can't I get up after I fall
I do it again
Even if it hurts, my head
But I want you next to me
I don't need any friends
And I wanna be dead
I don't need any ecstasy
I don't get any rest
Put a knife to my chest
Would you sit there and watch me bleed
Laying down in my bed
Only think about you
When I know that you don't think about me
I try, I promise
Dreaming about you at night
All said and done, tell me this is what you wanted