Xander’s Breakthrough Paul Shapera

Han Mi:

Jane woke up a long time later in the strange faerie city of Victoria, where a sheen of sparkle and unreality permeated everything. The human population seemed to float about listlessly, at any moment only a step away from senselessness

Jane was in perfect health and even had a pair of wings. She set out to find Xander

Xander had arrived at Victoria and immediately set about trying to heal the girl. Desperate for new insights and techniques they consulted the faeries and began studying fae magic in hopes it would provide them with new insights

It did

They approached fae magic like learning a new programming language. But in order to master the language you must master the logic, and the logic was not meant for the human mind. The more they understood, the more they had to twist their sanity. It drove them incurably mad. Furthermore, in order to give the girl new flesh without waiting the long time it would take to grow it, they had get it from somewhere. So they took it from themselves. Xander was now a laughing, insane torso, devoid of legs and all but their right arm

Xander:

Best you can

Best you can

And i swore that i would save her but i knew i never would
I cannot hold the patterns of the things i’ve understood
Your mind is what you sacrifice to peer behind the cracks
Too much to grasp but you must, you must, you must bring her back

And you must, this once, save the girl that's crying
All your strife, your whole life is wasted if she’s dying
And you cry away
And you cry lord you cry today