Holding on to Smoke Motionless in White

[Intro]
I'm tired of feeling comatose
I've lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding on to smoke
I'm barely holding on to smoke

[Verse 1]
I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
Why do I do this to myself on repeat?
So disconnected from my own reality
Am I man or machine?
If I give, will you take?
As I lie for the taste
I just fuck it up
As you lap it up
(Go)
Through flesh and bone
I walk alone
(Go)
If I run, will I fade away?
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind

[Chorus]
In all my pride, all my shame
I find strength enough to show you
I may bend but I won't break
Because I define who I
Define who I become