What Will I Have Lexa Gates

[Verse]
I want to cry but I feel nothing
It's like I'm living life behind this screen door
If the rent's paid, it don't matter how loud I scream
It's kind of comforting that everyone knows what I mean
Still, you don't got it like I do (No)
Still, you don't know what I've been through (No)
Still, going through it right now
Die tryna figure out how
If I don't get it right tonight, I hope I still got tomorrow
Living on borrowed time
Nothing I've ever touched was truly mine
Saying you got my back, but in time I'll find out you lying

[Chorus]
I'm stone cold, stone cold
Stone cold, stone cold
Stone cold, stone cold
Oh, y'all turned me stone cold, stone cold
Stone cold, stone cold
Stone cold, stone cold

[Verse 2]
What will I have? (Ah)
When the sun makes its rounds and the arms holding me turn cold shoulders?
When the faces that looked up and down notice what I am now and
Never again turn towards me?
When the house that I live in burns down
And we all have to leave in a hurry empty handed?
What will I have when I notice I've never had anything but a façade?
I look at myself from above as time moves in fast forward
Wake, eat, pace, sleep
Work, eat, sleep
I catch with both hands something tangible
Mangled and dead but it's not what I wanted
Nothing is ever enough
I double in size
I begged for something I forgot why I asked for at all
I am all there is