Close to Me WHY?

I've waited hours for this
I made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed
Asleep today
Oh
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
Oh
Just trying to see in the dark
Just try and make it work
I feel the fear
Before your ear
Oh
I make the shapes come much too close
I close my eyes and hold my breath and wait
Until I shake
But if I had your faith
Then I can make it safe and clean
Oh if only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
I waited for hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I stayed
Asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
Oh
But if I had your face
Then I could make it safe and clean
Oh if only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
Oh if only I was sure
I never thought
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