Smoke in the Night Grieves

I often wonder why we never made it home
And why it feels like all the effort that we gave was never noticed
The pressure kept on building up and closing in
And by the end, hell, I swear to god I couldn't swim
Like since when did all of this become so hard to walk around
I miss the music that influenced us to talk about it
We used to sit around for hours trying to find ourselves inside a song that made us want to stop and smell the flowers
For a second, just a single second's all I wanted
Now I feel like every star I use to find you with is falling out the sky
Now I can't even seem to find the time
And if I did, I doubt you'd even look me in my eyes like you used to
Everything we had is just a story now
And anyway I see it it's impossible to word it out
Word of mouth says you still leave the candle lit
Hoping that somebody will notice and hold your hand through this

It wasn't anybody's fault
From the moment I was leaving I could feel it in my veins
Thought that I was someone that won't forget your name
You begged me to not get on that train
You told me that I wouldn't come back the same
I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving
I could feel it in my veins
I begged you not to stand in the rain
I told you that the weather around here don't change
You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone
That won't forget your name