Sober Ekoh (Ft. LoLife)

[Verse 1: Ekoh]
Yeah, feeling sick again
Swore the last time was the last time
But look at me on a slip again
Wish I was different, but it's always the same
So strained a feeling of that withdrawal pain
And all my friends, they don't understand
It's been a minute since you've got a bag, maybe it wasn't that bad
And you can just have one now
And I'll be taking one balloon so high, I'll never come down
So wake me when it's over, I gotta try to fix this
I'll call you when I'm sober, or when I'm not resistant
I'm sorry that you love me, I know you hate it
Fucked up when I stopped being grateful and got complacent
I'm only high cuz I been feeling this low
And that's the only way to make it back to normal I suppose
And I know you think I'm perfect but all of that's a facade
And trying to hide how I been feeling is lonelier than I thought
So put the bottle down, I really don't trust what I do
I make the worst decisions sober, that's the fucking truth
Cuz I don't take the first hit when I'm already blitzed
I take it clear headed uncomfortable in my fucking skin
You don't know what I've done
I swear to god that if you did
Then your heart would be broken into a million pieces
Had it all but I lost it in a blink
Afraid to ask for help cuz I'm afraid of what you think