Resilence Atrophy

I've been so adamant

Expending my energy trying to fix all the damages

Life is a mess, but the true beauty emerges once  you have learned how to manage it

One at a time, I've come to terms with the fact that this didn't go as I planned it

I have been biding my time, doing the best that I can with what ive been handed

Im just a man, tempted by heathens
They seem to exploit me and all of my weaknesses

I need a reason to seize all these demons they whisper deceptions into my cerebral

What's the point of piety without faith?
Its nothing more than a clever disguise
I Got a habit of claiming the spoils of war and the glory as mine

God im in need of provisions so if youre still up there, send me a sign. Stuck in my prison its shifting to counter attempts to escape by my mind

When did my courage desert me? This arduous journey's contorting my spine. They say itll pass, this doubt im feeling, distorting my mind

Im sorry that I
( could never find the words to say when i needed them most.)
(I'll just push you away, won't let you get close.)
(Perplexed by this life, Im not so certain it even has meaning.)
(All this time i can't believe ive been dreaming)