Wish I Could Cry Citizen Soldier & Halocene

[Verse 1: Jake Segura]
Built a fortress trading memories for always feeling empty
Lost purpose running from my pain
I made a prison shining trauma and never found Nirvana
Sold cyanide for novacaine

[Pre-Chorus: Jake Segura]
I've learned that there is no healing in not feeling anything
I'm just a cage of skin that threw away the key
To fall apart right now that'd feel like ecstasy but
These walls weren't built to break

[Chorus: Jake Segura]
I really wish that I could cry right now
I really wish that I could let this out
Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
I'm too good at holding them down
I really wish that I could cry right now
But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
But the silence is making me drown
I really wish that I could cry
I really wish that I could cry

[Verse 2: Addie Nicole]
I've had to wear a thousand faces, be fake to just replace this
Panic that my past holds tight
Now every feeling's lost it's flavor 'cause I feel so much safer
As frozen than in fight or flight