Part Of Me Three A.M. (Ft. ​hamilton)

[Verse 1: Three A.M.]
Hit the silence on my phone, leave a message at the tone
I'll let emotions out 'cause they 'bout to overflow
I'll deal with this on my own, poppin' meds until I'm zoned
In my bed, I'm comatose, I just wanna overdose
Stuck in negative head space, the demons never go away
They just move another place, I'm too disgraced to show my face
Felt the same yesterday, the vicious game of drinking pain away
Feelings hit my chest like a bullet ricocheted
These the moments when time is ticking at its slowest
These the moments when I know that I've hit my lowest
Daily going through the motions
These thoughts have their own motives
Facing down reality hitting like a locomotive
Where am I between feeling hopeless and being focused?
Where am I between real life trauma and hocus pocus?
Wheres the fine line between fixed and forever broken?
Really love to know 'cause I've never been shown it

[Verse 2: hamilton]
I know I'm lost cause, never get things right
Walking all alone, I could die tonight
Nobody would know and nobody would care
Exhale my pain, now there's smoke in the air
I know that it's clear that I don't fit in
Feel so uncomfortable in my skin
Laying in bed and I feel so stuck
I hate the whole world, yeah, I know it's fucked
Something is wrong with me and it can't be fixed
Your fucking dishonesty just making me sick
Making me cringe
Making me wish that I didn't exist like every day
Tortured in my own brain
Yeah, I know it's a shame
I got nothing to say, I got nowhere to go
Feel like nobody wants me
I tend to push away those who love me