​i made this before i killed myself ​oxxie

[Verse]
Do you care that I wanna die?
Do you miss me when I don't reply?
Does my absence bother you
The way it bothers me?
I've been in my own head for way too long
I want her to be in my bed writing songs
But I sit here crying, feeling lost
Can't have her, she's far gone
Overdose on opioids to numb the pain
I smoke weed everyday to stump my brain
I don't wanna wake up tomorrow
I wanna be dead and drown in my sorrow
"It'll get better," that's what they say
But I've been feeling like this everyday
I don't wanna wake up, let mе decay
Would've been fine if shе had stayed
Sprits try to cope, but it doesn't work
Take another drink, spill it on my shirt
I got brand new shoes, stepped in the dirt
It doesn't get better, only gets worse

[Outro]
Nothing you do will change how I feel
Can't get worse, I'm skipping meals
On TikTok people comment "Real"
But that doesn't change
Any of your fucking feelings