Beautiful Pain Unseen

[Hook: Sia]
I'm standing in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Setting fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

[Verse 1: Unseen]
My fucking heads filled with demons
Each one of screaming, begging for a reason to make me grab a heater, cock it, squeeze it
Read between the lines, obviously not happy if thats whats on my mind
Cause I seen some shit when I was fucking five
That makes me believe that what I want is suicide
While I'm acting like I'm happy, dear god do not come at me
While I'm gassing this fucking blunt to combat
He doesn't notice hes the only reason, that I am still lacking the fucking guts so relaxing
I'm being a bitch? somebody get me a maxi
I don't care I'm not done venting, why the fuck are you still listening
I'm not gonna stop until I get my thoughts up on a sixteen
Or until I die trying, my minds a violent island....Far Crying
But fuck crying, cause I'm done trying
I wanna Buy what the dealer supplying, I wish that I were lying
But I'm a lion

[Hook: Sia]

[Verse 2: Unseen]
Only sixteen, but I got a dream of making it
I've been through some shit, and the rest a y'all are faking it
I've hardly got the time to blow a dime in the basement
While a dime blows me, fuck it. I ain't saying shit
Y'all know what it is, you've heard it all before
Crack head daddy, coming home late with whores
But that's in my past and I'm trying to get over it
Broken record on the subject, still not sober yet
Maybe that's the problem, is a clean mind a happy one?
I'm gonna be honest, a packed bowl's like a loaded gun
It keeps me scared straight, But I ain't ever wielded one
Shit hopefully I never will....
I know I'm not good, I know that I'm not famous
I know I'm not black, I know what color my face is
How would you feel, if we up and traded places?
How would you deal with the bitter hatred and resentment from yourself?
Your own piece of hell. Your personalized internalized jail cell
Take a step back, quit fucking judging
You need to understand its me who's been loving