I’m only human. (a poem by 15 year old me) ISSBROKIE

I love it when you say that I'm only human
Because I got some situations where I'm constantly losing
Whether it's, toxic strangers or my struggles with music
Or when I beat myself up and you start helping me through it
Cus I got too many problems where I'm pickin' and choosin'
The wrong things that I should say or my shitty solutions like self harm and smoking weed
Trynna make an illusion to feel like my grip on Earth hasn't started to loosen
I'm so abusive to myself, I can't help it
Sometimes I try to do something nice and be little more selfless
But my brain still connects it to myself being selfish
And It's stupid I know, but oncе again I can't really help it
So as I sit herе crying, to myself and my sweater
In my bathroom cuttin' wishing that I could be better
You hit me with a text asking, "Hey, how you doing?"
So I tell you and you tell me once again
You're only human...