She Ruins Everything Ellise

[Verse 1]
Used to ride bikes, now I ride a fine line between
Long nights and my ever-shrinking sanity
Covering all the mirrors 'cause strangers aren’t welcome here
I could make a long list of all my insecurities
Then I could fix 'em, but who would keep me company?
Friends with my biggest fears, passed on my better years

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I just got so much on my shoulders
I'm a little dim, a little colder
The younger me just wish that she was older
At twenty-four, I wish somebody told her

[Chorus]
She cries herself to sleep
Dies when people leave
Takes a little pill to hide the way
She’s drowning in the growing pains
Kill the fantasy for matter of time mentality
Little me was wondering who she'd be
What a shame to see
She ruins everything
She ruins everything, everything

[Verse 2]
Back handsprings for people who won't do the same
Bad landing, I fell in a hole and I stayed
Bad at cutting habits, good at cutting wings
Not to be dramatic, but scissors kinda sting