Can You Do Me A Kindness? Hotel Books

I don't go outside as much as I used to
I'm not home, just in my house, forgetting myself
Or at least trying to
But not forgiving until l come back out

I have a light on in my room
During the day, I hardly notice it
But at night, it keeps me from falling asleep
I have this dream of knowing you
During the day, I hardly notice it
But at night, it keeps me from all other dreams

The numbing of time taught me how to finally fall asleep
I just wish you'd come home and teach me how to wake back up
This is torture, this is truth, this is unfamiliar pain
This is following an ache, but this is love

There's a railroad track behind my house
At night, I can hear freight being taken to retail
But I'm still not sold on letting myself out

I never knew it was cold until I knew how the heat felt
You were always warm when put in warm place
But I was too shallow to contain the same flame

There's a nicotine patch on my nightstand
You never did quit, but at least you tried
Or maybe you did
But I never saw you lift a cigarette to your lips
I was preoccupied looking into my reflection
And the way you said you felt alive