Wintered Debts ​of Montreal

Can't survive another come-down day
When the spirit houses so much pain
So much bitterness, so much bitterness
I need to teach myself to feel again
Somehow I lost the thread of being human
Rotted in this bitterness, too much bitterness

I'm so confused, what is the function of this ego-sickness?
Uselessly beleaguered by self-hatred whisperings
I can't deal with mourning at the carcass
Of my failures any longer

Slipping on my own vomit while I
Tried to call you from a bathroom in Sao Paulo, but I was
Too drunk to formulate any sort of Earthly language
So much bitterness, too much bitterness

Other people can say there is a true belief system
But all my life I've been betrayed by my mother's religion
So much bitterness, too much bitterness

I'm so destroyed, what is the purpose of this ego-sickness?
Uselessly besieged by self-aversion whisperings
Man, I can't deal with mourning at the carcass
Of my failures any longer
Any longer!