Shame Andy Mineo (Ft. Josh Garrels)

[Chorus: Josh Garrels]
You fly in circles around my head
While I sit on the edge of my bed
I cry, oh, what have I done again?
It's hard not to hate who I am
It's hard not to hate who I am

[Verse 1: Andy Mineo]
I chase the moment that when I had it I felt alive
But now that the thrill is gone, I feel dead inside
I feel like everyone know the secrets I wanna hide
And everytime they ask me how I'm doing, I just say "I'm fine"
Too embarrassed to share it or maybe too much pride
I create my own prison, holding the keys inside
Punishing myself for all of these crimes
And I'm trying to convince God that I'm not a waste of His time
What's wrong with me? Am I defective?
I keep on making a mess
Why can't I ever get it together?
Soon people gon' find out I'm not what they expected
They see who I really am then I end up rejected
I try to stand tall, but these knees are collapsing
'Stead of asking for help these apps'll distract me
So lonely, but so many people are friending me
While I post, I hope one day to be happy as I pretend to be