The Pensive Disarray Voyager

I seek to find
All the things that i have found
All the times that i have lost so

I seek to yield
To the pressures of today
To the pensive disarray

But i'm still folding
Holding onto what i've got

I seek to bring
All the gifts of inner core
To the ones that i adore so

I can surround
Myself with the ones i love
With the ones i trust and i'm still holding
Holding onto what i've got

I take the pressure now
I take the silent sour
I keep believing
I hold the reason
I hold the answer how
Will i know why right now
I hold the reason
I am deceiving