UNTIL IM FALLING APART Baby Jay 951

They just wanna see me at my worst until I’m falling apart
I’m still standing through it all, I wear my scars on my heart
You don’t gotta waste your breath I knew this all from the start
This something scary like a figure in the hall when it’s dark

I see it every night

My shadow too scared to follow
I ain’t been myself enough to care I’m hollow
This ain’t for your sympathy, could you spare the sorrow?
Threat upon my life your funeral be prepared tomorrow

Every time I close my eyes feel like I’m trapped in a curse
You think you finally made it out until it’s back and it’s worse
I feel my body breaking down, it’s hard to laugh when it hurts
My time is over you can feel the pain attached to these words

I play the past in reverse & hope I crash in a hearse
Never thought I’d have to question what I’m actually worth
No competition ever mattered if I’m last or I’m first
I’m trying to live forever under the grass & the dirt

So can you take away my pain and give me something that’s real?
I’m tired of using all these substances to numb what I feel
Its getting hard to fight the feeling of me clutching the steel
Can't really play the cards you handed with a fucked up deal...