I Dance And Dance And Smile And Smile Alan Cumming

I'm always loving someone more than they love me
Lord, I wish that just this once that's not how it would be
I always try too hard when I find someone new
God, I wish that just this once you'd need me more than I need you

I danced to please my father, just to win one glance
Some sign of his approval
I danced and danced and danced and danced

I smiled to make my mother proud, I was her child
To win some small affection
I smiled and smiled and smiled and smiled

My books and bikes I bartered to try and buy a friend
Now I've grown this heart I own is the currency I spend and spend and spend

And in the end, I will give you everything I own
Sure, you never want me for myself alone
Oh how I hate the way I am, always trying to impress
Lord, if I could love me more than I could love you less

And if I could love you less I would not confuse you dancing dancing smiling smiling
'Til of course, I lose you