Anthropophobia JubyPhonic

I can't find any words why?
They run away from me
Choking a barely heard “why can’t I breathe?”
Piercing with gazes
“please don't look” I cry
How many times
Do I need to hear rejections and goodbyes?

I'll hide away, a hide and seek
Still recycling
A heart kept under lock and key
Another wall too tall for me
I’ll never reach your goals, too high
Back to starting line
Please leave me be
Listen to me just this time

I'm scared, I know
But I worry what they'll think of me
As tears will flow
See me trembling, a tragedy
I see!
Maybe I'm not like the others surrounding me
I finally see!

Run away, I'll flee from all the kindness
Burn it in the flames
I'll cast it all away in pain
But why?
Did it have to all end up still destroyed by time? I wanna cry