Happiness at Best Hey Geronimo

I love you, I hate you, I'm on the fence, it all depends
Whether I'm up, I'm down
I'm on the mend, transcending on reality
I like you, despise you, admire you
What are we gonna do when everything all falls through?
I must confess, I've made a mess of what should be a small success
But I digress, at least I've tried my very best, I guess
This, that, the other, why even bother?
It won't be on my deathbеd

Rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it nеver ends
Rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends

My internal monologue is saturated analog
It's scratched and drifting, I'm attached to the idea
It's all a shifting dream, a bittersweet philosophy
I have no idea how I even got here
I'm resentful, I'm having an existential time crisis
Want bliss, daylight savings won't fix this mess
I'm under-worked and over-sexed, I must express my disinterest
The rats are back inside my head

I'm rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends
Rotting my brain once again
It's always the same and it never ends