DARK NIGHT IN THA 919 919slum

[Hook]
I got blood up on my sheets, I been cryin' all day
Eyes dry, fuckin' red, I can't even see straight
I hadn't got high for about 7 months
But, the fake shit, it got to me that no one gives a fuck
Feelin' desolate and out to dry, ultimately dead inside
Brain is fucked, a scrambled mind since you were only over 5
Just by a couple months, now I guess it's all fucked
Went down a dark road, dark night, and it's fuckin' rough

[Verse 1]
You wanna know the truth? I got no friends up in this fuckin' life
This is me talkin', fuck the SLUM name, fuck the bullshit 919
It's a façade, a damn mirage, I ain't no killer, bruh, you know
I ain't no gangster, no gangbanger, bruh, I'm just 1-5 Years old
A private school is where I go, my lowest grade a 98
I'm tryna bе a doctor so I know I'm gon' have to do great
But I don't know if I can handle all this food that's on my platе
I only try as hard as I do out of my self-hate
When my bruh left me, ghosted me for just some bitch, I lost my mind
When that girl left me, ghosted me, I relapsed, wanted straight to die
Simplistic, yeah I know, but how I felt right at the time
If- if I got nobody, maybe it's not their fault, it could be mine
I ain't never had nobody ever there ask me, like
"Hey, how you doin'? Everything goin' alright?"
Like, nah, fuck, it's been too long, I been on here tryna rot
Six feet, Hell heap, in that early grave plot