Virtue’s Last Reward Rustage (Ft. Ben Schuller)

[Intro: Ben Schuller]
My virtues paid
It's my last reward

[Verse 1: RUSTAGE]
Only started rapping cause somebody said I couldn’t
Kept on making music cause nobody said I shouldn’t
Never thought I’d make it but nobody said I wouldn’t
When you’ve done it long enough you get out what you put in
I was never special but I had passion and put the work in
All I made was garbage I didn’t need to be perfect
It is kinda freeing to know that you don’t deserve it
Did this for myself so I didn’t need to be nervous
Did this for myself so I didn’t need to be hurting
Focused on the music and everything I was learning
I was having fun with it, never needed a purpose
Earnest, I was just happy they could’ve heard it
Burn it, I feel that feeling has been deserted
I’m sick of making music, sick of feeling like I’m worthless
Sick of staying up all night and stressing bout my words and now I’m sick of
All the pressure that’s rising up to the surface

[Chorus: Ben Schuller]
I’ve been drowning in the silence of a bad dream
They all love it but don’t know a thing about me
Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
Nothing's changing, they are moving on without me
I paved my way to the top
So what
I don’t even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I’ve not forgot
My virtues paid
It’s my last reward