Try To Understand Ricky Hil

[Intro]
Nostra, Avenue, yeah
Ricky Hil, C.T. Slickville
It's nothin' new
What it do, yeah

[Verse 1]
Everybody's pushing me in a new direction
The problem is, I can't seem to make a connection (I don't [?] connect to your world)
Yea, anything you say that I need to do
So why are you testing me? (Why are you pushing me?)
I make my own decisions
The way that I'm living is up to me (I make that shit up on my own, yeah)
I don't wanna follow what you call society, no
I don't need to be anything that I don't wanna be (that I don't wanna know)
And they gon' make me try to be somebody else
That's impossible to me
I made my own name, I stayed myself
Sounds logical to me
See, I ain't gonna walk away from this, no
I ain't gonna talk, n worry about the things I miss (I ain't gonna talk about it)
I hope I let you know by the time you leave
How much that you mean (a lot to me), mean to me (the most to me)
I don't wanna leave (go), but I owe you (I can't go)
Remembering me (need to know), remembering me
You need to know that dedication is always gonna get the best of me
All that medication brought the worst out of me
I'm hoping that you know everything I'm telling you today (everything I'm saying tonight, yeah)
I hope you hear my name in the back of your head
And you listen to me on days you wish you were dead
I know that it gets hard to understand
But sometimes it's easier to not have a plan than try to understand (I don't ever try to understand)