On my Death Bed Qual

I can't tell if im alive or dead
I check the bathroom
I check the bed
But your not there
Im looking for you everywhere
Under the covers
On a chair
With no where to be seen
I live in great despair
Last night i suffered
And tonight aswell
Love be the deepest pain
A living hell

Folding in on myself
Losing my shell
It´s the most lethal disease
A world without thee
With out thy dark beauty
Im crumbling
Fucking crumbling
Completely deceased
Spending every evening
In my death bed
With you in my head