RUSSIAN DOLL Jhariah

[Verse 1]
What’s with that hole in your head?
Couldn’t say when it came, how I was shot last time
But I can tell I’m when I’m caught hopelessly
Beneath seances summoning more from me than I’ve got
And I'm just so tired, 'cuz each day takes aim
At all that it knows me to have, and expands on its list of demands

[Pre-Chorus]
This year I enter the winter so full of resentment
Covered in brand new bruises, but none that I remember
I’ve seen the signs beforе

[Chorus]
So why can’t I recall?
How did I find my way home last time?
I fall on squarе one, each fall I take
Why should I try again?

[Verse]
If I know that tomorrow
Will bring new lows, can I still go?
Is it hopeless to put myself
Through the motions, through this wringer?
Oh, my head’s hardly here on a good day
And it’s certainly gone when it rains
If you shot me tonight, would it kill me?
Would I find the time to die in your gaze?